While I was active in my alcoholic disease, honesty was not a spiritual principle I gave much thought to other than “I bought the last round, so this one is your turn” or “I did NOT say that about so and so (when I probably had)”. My actions and behaviors were not honest. While I was hitting bottom and bouncing along I began to get a few moments of clarity – having a true glimpse of who I had become under the influence of alcohol. Life was not working the way I wanted it to, people were not behaving the way I wanted them to and none of it was my problem. DUH.